Well Thurday and Friday we attended our two day Buckner seminar. I approached it as just another necessary evil in order to get closer to our baby. However, the two ladies running the seminar, Leah and Carol were very helpful and so knowledgeable.
Day one was focused on losses that the adoption triad face-birth families, adoptive families, and children. I had actually read that book, so I felt good. We were talking interacting with the other three couples, and I did not cry once. There was no feeling of nausea, apprehension, just a woohoo that I had everything figured out.
Friday God decided to remind me I am not in charge. We spent the first half of the morning talking about all of the laws that go into this and every possible scenario in the world. I had a slight freak out. I had feelings like my life that I like simple and planned was about to be part of a horrible lifetime movie. That was just the beginning.
In the afterrnoon, we started talking about what's going to happen at the hospital. Buckner does something called an entrustment ceremony where the birth parent places the baby with the adoptive parents. I then had this overwhelming feeling like I was taking someone's baby.
However the next part was a little reassuring. We talked to two couples who had adopted multiple times through Buckner. One mom made the comment " our birth mom was the answer to our prayer, and we were the answer to hers'. It reminded me that I'm not in charge and God has this process ordained and already knows how it's going to go. I just need to hold on for the ride.
Also, I think I am done painting. yes, I'm working on the nursery. It's summer and I have time. Why not?
Ok, there is my post. I need to do this more. It's a good outlet.
